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Everyone has that one person who is the one who got away, and if you don’t, then you will meet them at some point in your life. I went to school with this girl for two years and had a crush on her the entire time I knew her. It wasn’t one of those crushes where you admire from a far and never actually talk to them. We saw each other and talked everyday even though in those two years we only had one class together. I always thought about asking her on a date but she was part of the more popular crowd and I was not so I figured there was no chance of her saying yes so I never actually did ask her. After those two years my family decided to move about an hour away and I never saw her again. For the first year we kept in touch pretty well and talked a lot but eventually we just stopped talking. When I moved away one of her friends was talking to me and said it was a shame how my crush and I had never gotten together. I asked her to explain and she told me how she had had a crush on me the entire time too. Looking back on it the signs were all there I was just to young and stupid to ever realize it. That’s when she became my one who got away. I’m not saying this girl and I would have made it all the way, I’m just saying we would have been great together and I blew the one chance that I had of being with her. Well here we are in 2012. This girl and I haven’t talked in 6 years and seen each other in 7. Every now and then I think of her and imagine how things would have been with her and how life would be different now, or if there would be any change at all. The other day I was on Facebook and saw it was her birthday. I had completely forgot we were even friends on Facebook but figured I’d wish her a Happy Birthday for old times sake. What resulted from my post on her wall is her and I starting to talk again and plans to meet up this summer and catch up. You think this would make me happy, but it scares me more than anything. I had come to terms that she was the one who got away and that’s how things were going to be. Now I might be getting the shot that I’ve always wanted and there are three possible out comes. 1. Things go great and we end up together. 2. Once we meet up either her or I have changed so much that the other is no longer interested in the other. 3. Things start off great but then I mess them up somehow, which I find as the most likely outcome. I had come to terms with my one who got away but now anything can happen and that’s what scares me. Now its time for things to play out for better or worse.
I think this is just messed up.